Crawling Out From the Rubble
record scratch It's been a while, hasn't it?
I've had a hell of a year. A lot of it was filled with depression so that can explain why I stopped updating after counts two whole posts. A lot has happened since thenโ I was really mentally ill, I got a new-ish job that sorted out what I'm gonna call The Horrors, I broke up with my previous partner, I started a relationship with my current partner, I got really bad seasonal depression for like 4 months, I took a break for a few weeks that rejuvenated me, and I'm currently in a weird phase of "oh things are good enough but now that we've opened the blinds and let the light in it's clear how much of me is a mess".
So yeah. The ups and downs of life.
I do want to blog more. I guess I'm writing this post as a way to keep me accountable, and also to take the pressure off the first post in a long time. I feel like I'm brimming with ideas and there's a restlessness within me that's itching for a project to work on. I'm also dealing with the fear of not being good enough and the idea that no one is gonna care about ANY of this, but I figure that's just my insecurities speaking and hey, between you and me, I think they're kinda stupid. But I still want to voice them out because they're a lot less scarier on the page than in my head.
I don't know if anyone will come across this page. But if you do, and if you have a moment to tear yourself away from the attention economy, drop me an email at faithorise27@gmail.com yeah? Just like. Your favourite colour or something. Just to say hi, just so I know someone's out there.
I hope to post more soon. I don't know what it's gonna be, but I'm gonna try to hold myself to that.